Yet again, it has been a while since I sat down and wrote about anything for my blog. I have been working hard to manage my time and thus new life I find myself in. Studying has quickly become hardwired into my schedule this semester. After two years, I am finally diving into classes that will help me with my career in business. There isn’t just one thing about this place that makes me love it here. Mostly, just the environment of being around like-minded people. One of the girls in my hall made a comment the other day that intrigued me. She said, “It is weird moving in with strangers and choosing to trust them with no idea of who they actually are.” This got me thinking: How do we dive in to things so trusting of the unknown? Not just our living situations, but turning into an “adult” and believing that whatever we throw ourselves into will work out. So after days of pondering this idea: I realized this may be our last big act as children. Think about it: a child’s mind is so pure. They trust and have bravery that everything will be okay. I notice that as we grow older, this child-like mentality fades. We see the negative sides of the world and we begin, slowly, to lose that sense of trust and wonder in ourselves and in others. Could it really be that this time in our lives may be the best of both worlds? Most of us, discovering our independence, while still having a safety net.
Down the rabbit hole I went, thinking of where my life is going and where it has been. Small town girl goes to the big city. We’ve all heard that story, right? I want to use this time to reintroduce my sense of wonder and curiosity to inspire me. My life has been a series of new schools, new friends, and new ideas. Slowly, I began to chase adulthood as if being young was unappealing. Now, in college and getting ready to begin life with the person who makes my heart beat, I am finding the peace in slowing down and smelling the roses. College is such an interesting time of life. Almost a pause from life – not under our parents reign, yet still hoping they will answer when we call, not yet fully realizing the weight of total independence, or hanging on to whatever we can resembling childhood.
“He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them. And he said: ‘Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.’” ~ Matthew 18:2-6
Is it possible to remain in the mindset of a child: having that pure faith forever? A thought for another day…
October is a very special month – very close to our hearts. My thoughts have been consumed with my family and my faith. God has been breaking down my walls and opening my mind and heart to all sorts of thought provoking ideas. Getting those thoughts down on paper (metaphorically) and onto my blog was the whole reason I started this thing. Glad to be back and hopefully, I’ll be here for a while.